October 18th, 2013
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childrenShould you foster if you really want to adopt? Some areas have thriving foster-to-adopt programs where you go through the foster care training and become licensed foster parents, but you are only called with placements of children who are already likely to be in need of an adoptive home.  Either their parents’ rights have already been terminated, or the social workers expect this to happen shortly.  If that’s the case, perhaps this route to adoption may be ideal for those who don’t have too many criteria limiting what children they’d like to adopt and/or whose adoption budget is quite low.

However, not every locality has a thriving foster-to-adopt program.  My area, for instance, only took prospective foster parents willing to do “straight fostering”, without any promise of adoption.  If that’s the case in your area, should you risk it?

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I think being able to tell if you will make a good foster parent is not something you can assess in advance.  At least not for most people.  To be a good foster parent, you need to have a desire to care for a child with the same level of attention, love, and interest as you would your own child (meaning a child that is staying with you permanently).  Yet the paradox is that you must also be willing to share your parenting with social workers and birth families to some degree.  What’s more, you must be able to go against your own parental instincts when challenged by the child’s social worker, because you do not have legal custody of the child: only physical custody.  Finally, you must be ready to part with a child who lived in your home and was a part of your family, sometimes even for years, without so much as a promise of ever being able to see the child again.

I don’t know about anyone else, but for my husband and me, this proved to be impossible.  The contradictory nature of foster parenting forced us to choose whether we’d invest everything into our little girl and risk being hurt for the sake of providing her with the sort of close attachment she needed at a critical time in her life, or whether we’d opt to protect ourselves by keeping our distance and only providing for her basic needs without embracing her as “our own”.  We chose her needs over ours and hoped we would end up adopting her.  We gambled, and we lost.

The suddenness with which she was removed from our home and life was a shock to my system, and I found it difficult to readjust to life as a non-mother again.  Fostering is not the same as adopting.  In a way, to be a truly good foster parent, you must be willing to be a martyr of sorts.  You must be willing to follow orders even when you disagree.  You must be willing to accept that you may be hurt every time you welcome a new child into your home.  I tip my metaphorical hat to anyone who can do this time and time again, and not fall into the pattern of turning fostering into a mere babysitting job.

Sadly, our foster daughter spent time with this kind of family before and after leaving our home.  But at least she spent most of her time in a family who loved her and adored her and envisioned a life with her “just in case” she’d end up staying.  She was very young (6-16 months old) while with us, so I know that even if she doesn’t consciously remember us, it was imperative for her to learn how to form proper attachments to loving adults during this impressionable time.  I take solace in knowing that, but I could not bring myself to go through it again with another child.

So, should you foster if what you really want to do is adopt?  Only if you don’t set up unreasonable expectations for each child you are placed with.  Only if you are willing to risk getting hurt.  Only if you are stronger than me.  And for the sake of the children who need foster parents and for your sake if you are hoping to adopt through foster care, I truly do hope that you are stronger than me.  Godspeed on your journey.

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One Response to “Should You Foster if You Want to Adopt?”

  1. fosterto2 says:

    Excellent writing. We have fostered for 4 years and have had 4 long term placements. Two went “home” (such as it was) and two stayed and are being adopted. Nothing raised my blood more than one someone says “I could never foster – I’d love the kids to much to send them back” as if my wife and I lack an emotional attachment to the children in our care.

    Being a good foster parent means you will be hurt. If taking in these children doesn’t cause pain – PLEASE STOP.

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