So I've taken a little break here at the Hope To Adopt blog. A few days off to get some perspective. It's been good. I did a little on my Russian Adoption blog. I enjoyed my children. I had a couple of job interviews.

Yes, you read correctly. Job interviews.

For a moment there I was going to venture back into the world of working out of the house. It was a big deal around here. Those of you who do work out of the house, especially those of you who work full-time, probably would've found my soul-searching and consternation from the past couple of weeks kind of amusing, but it wasn't to me. It was serious business.

I was going to get a part-time job, quit my blogs, and pare down to only those things that were necessary. Bare minimum for my business. Bare minimum of writing.

Quitting the blogs, for a while there, seemed like a very good thing. I don't dislike writing my two blogs at all. I'm learning a lot. I've found I can write to a deadline, which I'm sure will serve me well in the future. I been part of a wonderful community of fellow bloggers and parents.

But writing about and thinking about adoption every single day can wear on a person. Writing and thinking about Little J's issues every sigle day was wearing on me, especially. I was spending too much time talking about his problems and a lot of time dealing with his problems...which leads to no rest for the brain.

Writing this blog, Hoping to Adopt, a new thing to me, has also brought up some issues, most obviously: am I hoping to adopt again? Why? When? If I am, and my husband isn't, what does that mean? How serious a problem is it? AAAGGGGGHHHHH.

He hasn't really enjoyed my constant dwelling on a subject he'd like to avoid, I'll tell you that much.

Perhaps I should start writing romance novels? That seems like the complete opposite of my life (no offense, hubby!) Or perhaps I should start living my life as if it's a romance novel. Hubby'd enjoy that. Particularly if we were in a Harlequin "Spice" series novel.

Is it hot in here?

So I thought about changing things and I took a couple of days off this blog and I took it easy. And I decided that I didn't need to give up the writing and the thinking (or the time at home while we're lucky enough to be able to afford me here) -- but perhaps I needed to take a step back for a while. Be a little more academic for this blog, less personal (same goes for the Russian Adoption blog). More book reviews. More how-tos.

Sure. I can stick to the facts. Nothing personal. No emotion. No dwelling. No hoping here, no ma'am.

Anyone got a stop watch? We'll see how long this lasts...