Well folks, I thought I'd squelched that baby-longing that gets me in trouble every time, but then my husband went and bought a certain brand of pull-ups for Little J's night-time potty issues and it all came flooding back.

Pampers have a very disctinctive smell. They smell like a baby to me...

It's kind of strange since I never used Pampers. With Big J I used cloth diapers (oh, the horror!) for about 8 months and then we switched to Luvs or Huggies or something like that. Pampers are more expensive. I have less diaper experience with Little J as he wasn't with us when he was a little bitty baby, but with him it was whatever was cheapest and yet still effective. With Little J's malabsorbtion issues we went through lots of diapers. Frankly, for him it wasn't the smell of the actual diaper that overwhelmed us, it was the 3/4 times/day of diarrhea.

Eeeeeuuuw.

So maybe Pampers smell like other people's babies. Girl babies.

Pampers + reading about people hoping to adopt + looking at agency websites for research = really strong longing for another child in me. That's the formula right there. If it were just me I'd have that homestudy agency here right now.

But luckily, and I do mean luckily, it's not just me.

My husband's reasons for holding off a while are good ones. Especially the ones about money, about the boys getting older so we can do more fun things, and the biggest reason of all: it wouldn't be very good for Little J to have attention diverted away from him. Not at all.

Yes, yes. Logical. My husband is a true Mr. Spock. Live long and prosper.

But I think Mother Nature made it so baby love trumps logic. That's how the species gets perpetuated, no? And I know he'd love a girl baby if we got one...so here we are, back at square one once again.